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a poem by John Grochalskiseason's greetings
they had us working twelve hour shifts from open to close and the place was a madhouse of people off for their holiday breaks shouting their wine orders and making dinner plans with their asshole friends on their cell phones as the rest of us hauled cases out of the warehouse and stocked the shelves as fast as we could only to do it again moments later. and they kept the holiday music going the whole time sinatra, dean martin, good old bing crosby who beat the shit out of his kids for christmas while the people in the store picked out their wine in bright jackets and festive hats as they sang along with the music as we ran around speaking exhausted gibberish hoisting more cases of wine throwing the bottles of red and white into slats listening to the same twelve hours of manufactured cheer all those long hours while the owner of the store smiled benevolently at his customers from his perch and tried to figure out how to cut our paychecks down to the minute. and there was never a break from the music. it played in the staff room as you shoved down lunch it played in the bar across the street where we went for secret pints and shots on our dinner break it emanated out of cars in the cold buffalo night and it played on the radio as you drove home beaten and demoralized through another december snow it played in your drunken dreams at night as the street glowed those ugly christmas colors. all those terrible, merry songs sung by the smiling famous and the dead silent night the first noel oh come all ye faithful jingle bells and the rest of that miserable pap that gave you no comfort or joy. it stayed with you like a venereal disease that whole long and final month of another bad year burning and aching so that when december twenty-sixth rolled around and everyone else was tired from the yuletide and miserable you suddenly felt like a million dollars driving down the street bleary-eyed and finally gone mad blasting rudolph the red-nosed reindeer with a tallboy of silver bullet between your legs in ear shot of every straggling bastard coping with an egg nog hangover heading back toward that job for another twelve hours as the world geared up to ring in the new year in just under a week. |